well where to start lol i'm at work its 04.25am i'm a mental health nurse for over 65's and i can't get the boyfriend who dumped me out of my head..call me sad but i've never been here before i'm gay by the way i've had so far in my short life 5 relationships lasting from 5 weeks (the first) to 5 years (the one before this)..but i've never felt like this we met off a web sight called Gaydar we natterd on there then swapped mobile nos then txt'd we both thought that we would never meet but the bank holiday sunday i said why not come over for a shag..as gay men do lol and he did and he came over and walked in the door and something in me went click!! hes 6 foot short laddish brown hair blue eyes big broad sholders bit of a tum (he weighs 18 stone) he was wearing the normal laddish stuff trackies an a polo shirt we spent 4 hours together and it was fab we had sex we natterd..i walked him to his car i said we should meet up again we did a few days later..then the next time we talked about relationships and how the one he was in was goin no where, his mom didn't like him cos he was black..but thats some people we talked about his job..hes a bus driver in caslesford just out side leeds hes not been out long at the time he was 26 came out when he was 21 and stright into a relationship with an older man which lasted 5 years he showed me his profile not nice an older fat queen appers it wasn't a good relationship he was as he said controled and not alowed to do any thing on his own..he said that he found ways to meet other men for sex druring their time together even to have an affair that lasted 7 months but it came to an end i never found out why not probed as you do..any way thats when we started.......